Majulah Singapura ( Onward Singapore )

Life is full of brackets. What’s in those brackets surrounding words, is your superego holding you back?

This semester is so over, I just had my Psychology paper today (and I have no comments). I tried to look at Econs after my drained day and there was no way I could have sat down to revise. (In fact, I took the night off). With Econs and Linguistics on the 3rd, I have 9 lingering days before my last paper. This exam especially is so draggy, I wish they all fell on the same day, so that I could get over and be done with it while the information’s still swirling within the thinking cap. -eureka!

-Singapore’s anthem-

 I’m going back on 28th of November and although I’m looking forward to it( the family and friends part that is), I can’t help but think about all the things I have to do after I get back. I guess I’d just have to party my heart out after my exams (or between the 3rd and the 12th). I’m going to BRITNEY SPEARS concert! Not a fan, but my first ever concert. And yes. Parties fall after the 3rd so I might have to write the whole essay out, read it a few times (and hopefully borderline that D). At the meantime, I hope I have the stamina to get healthy and in shape to welcome summer, and halleluiah to the very humid summer thereafter.

Goodbye to Jeans.
Hello to late night shopping, authentic food, and shorts.
Here I come sexy sunny Singapore(ans).

versus.

Exams are nearing!

It’s like, next Saturday. And you bet I’m NOT prepared!!

GOOD LUCKKK TO ME!!!

I don’t get cramps often, if at all. And mood swings that swings crazily are only attributed to tightening of the braces ( when you can’t bite, and your teeth moves. The root MOVES ) and when there’s exams, and it’s painful. It’s painful to say no to playing. It’s even painful, coming back after a long day at school, taking a bath, cooking, and dragging yourself up to do some readings.

I had never fully appreciated the car rides to school, to ballet classes, singing classes, art classes, dance classes, swimming classes, chess classes, DJ classes, piano classes, violin classes, Gu zheng classes. As you can see i’m trying to list down all the lessons i’ve been to and it’s CRAZY. How much time i spent on the car, and how much time i could have spent on the BUS. Not to mention my piano classes were all the way at Yio Chu Kang. And we all know who lives there and how bloody far that is. But now, in Perth. I take 45-1h to get home, and i don’t even live far! Talk about a ride from Lavender to YCK now.

My mom makes a point to cook my lunch and I always TRY TO ESCAPE. I hated the rides home in the car while she makes me eat in the car and asks about my homework. I hated eating a full meal. I loved taking ridiculously little amount of rice and snacking on random biscuits while my dad complains how thin I’d be, showing me models with messed up bones.

While others learn independence, I learn appreciation.

I can’t wait to go back to the sunny Singapore, even though my skin and house’d be in a mess. Afterall, I’ve learnt to eat full portions. Full portions of authentic food, and simple elegant meals my mom makes. And i won’t forget to praise it the next time!

applehappy

joey looks so happy, and i'm just trying to get away from his saliva haha

Yup, I’ve been living here for quite a while now. Joey’s a golden retriever and he is so cute. He’s not the brightest but today while throwing a rod for him to fetch I injured myself by accident. It was so bad, I had to sit down and whine. You know how dogs bite onto something and refuses to let go because it wants to play tug -o-war?  I was so surprised that it tossed the rod aside and licked my face  and shin instead. Everyone say awww.. =D

smell me!

 

And not to forget my beloved friend/ housemate Tanya. She’s <3 because she appreciates my spontaneity snd animated expressions. And she helps me with technology haha.

joey looks so happy, and i’m just trying to get away from his saliva haha

smell me!

me and tanya

Not the best photo but give us a break, we just took a shower!

ok now off to bed!
Applehappy! =)

Lessons to lessen the pain

For those who can’t forget..

It would be better to just lick my wounds, as I had also done in the past. For a while, I’ll think obsessively about her, I’ll become embittered, I’ll bore my friends because all I ever talk about is my wife leaving me. I’ll try to justify what happened, spend days and nights reviewing every moment spent by her side, I’ll conclude that she was too hard on me, even though I always tried to do my best. I’ll find other women. When i walk down the street, I’ll keep seeing women who could be her. I’ll suffer night and day, day and night. This count take weeks, months, possbly a year or more… I want to believe that it’s wonderful to be free. Free again. Ready to find my one true love, who is waiting for me and who will never allow me to experience such humiliation again. [ The Zahir- a novel of obsession ]

Within the first few pages of the novel, I already fell in love with the book. Writings that could relate to real emotions, and I could picture the lost of love, the pain, the yearning and the hate. Words that float to form a body. I would want to continue reading. Yet I couldn’t help but wonder if I could just ” lick my wounds, as I had also done in the past.” Could it be that whenever someone leaves, it’s because someone else is about to arrive?

Can you find love again, again and over again? I don’t want to fall into the generation- strong, free, and committed. That is, commited to what’s best for me. I believe in being vunerable, and falling into each other’s arms, with freedom to choose what’s best for us. If I have to fight for anything in life, it is the fight to survive that generation. I believe in companionship, trust and unconditional love. And i believe in fighting for a love so passionate and fierce. How can that be replaced? How can there be three one true love?

 

I’m just musing!

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burning questions

Day turns into Night and Night turns into Day. Winter gives way to Spring, and time is shifting from one moment to the next. Every moment is dying to be captured and every image wants to be remembered. When was the last time you lay down on the green green grass, stopped and listened to your beathing? When was the last time you followed a figure of influence around aimlessly, with a heart so tender, loyal, and pure.

Sometimes I try to clear the breakups, exam-full, socially-draining world, and try to remember the carefree days, when our schedules are as free as our hearts. Do you believe in attacking the ruthless world with your mind while keeping your faith in the world close to your heart? I guess you used to, loved to, want to, never did.

If there’s so much to fight for, can you really still experience everything? Can you still fight for something knowing that you’re missing out everything else? Can you make a mistake and miss your fate?

10001110001 km

Man if my exam timetable’s going to be unfriendly, at least let me end early =(
Yup, exams are coming in a month time and i’ve got to catch up on a lot a lot of work. I’ve got to say though, that i can’t believe year one is coming to an end. With all the moving of houses, it just feels like i’ve never really settled down, and everything seems like yesterday. I guess that also means that 5 years would be over soon..

I’ve been cooking a lot lately so i think i’m saving money in that aspect. (But i’ve also been going out so that evens out.) I love dishwashers, I want to have one of them in my house next time =)

oh and more random topics, I went for “search for the star” and I didn’t expect to see so many people i know performing! It was an excellent performance, and $10 was so worth the money! I don’t know anyone who did not enjoy it.

Sian, I’ve an sian studies presentation tomorrow, better go read it through one more time!

So there goes my life,
Passing by with every exit sign.
It’s been so long,
Sometimes I wonder how I will stay strong.
No sleep tonight,
I’ll keep on driving these dark highway lines.
And as the moon fades,
One moment gone, only twenty more days.

But I will see you again,
I will see you again,
a long time from now.

And there goes my life,
Passing by with every departing flight.
And its been so hard,
So much time so far apart.
And she walks the night.
How many hearts will die tonight?
And will things have changed?
I guess I’ll find out in seventeen days.

But I will see you again,
I will see you again,
a long time from now.

My body aches,
And it hurts to sing.
No one is moving.
And I wish that I weren’t here tonight,
But this is my life.

And I will see you again,
I will see you again a long time from now.

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change of addressss

I moved in on Monday, Applecross- Kinda far from school but i guess everything will be ok if the charges are slack. My bed is pretty and i guess not having a desk of my own is kinda funny, but i’d get used to using the desk in the study room.

Above all, i think it’s great living with a friend. No drama, and the house and the theatre all to ourselves. I can’t stop watching tv, it’s like never ending shows to watch! I woke up at 12.30, microwaved lunch, went into the theatre room and i JUST got myself up! I’ve exams tomorrow, better get down to studying soon.

I’d love to ask myself what else has changed.

Annoyed.

I got a house close to sch, got new bedsheets, bought new wardrobe. I moved in on the 9th.
 My housemate wants that room now and the lease is under her name. 

For the third time, wtf.